Friday, March 29th, 2002
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7:05 am - this is confusing me..
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im confused.. my best friend said that she was going to stay home from school today.. seeing as its Good Friday.. and were catholic so we dont have to go to school.. and last night she told me that she was going to stay home.. but like 4 minutes ago i saw her walk outside with ehr backpack on.. so now i wonder if shes even going to go over mjs.. well there goes the bus .. and shes on it cuz i saw her sittin with courtney.. maybe she just went there so that she could turn in her project and get 5 extra points.. but if you ask me thats not really a bad idea.. i should of done that seein as the mass (in the church) doesnt even start until 6:30 and ends at 8:30 (at night) but im still not going cuz im wicked tired.. and plus.. i brought in anote saying i wasnt gonna be here anyways.. and i missed the bus to! so i couldnt go to school if i wanted to .. well i have gtg and talk online wt the otha peeps who are stayin home.. wow.. alot of peeps .. at least 5.. ttyl!
current mood:  confused
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Wednesday, February 27th, 2002
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5:29 pm - da best song....
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I never win 1st place
I don't support the team
I can't take direction
And my socks are never clean
Teachers dated me
My parents hated me
I was always in a fight
'Cause I can't do nothing right
Everyday I fight a war against the mirror
Can't take the person staring back at me
I'm a hazard to myself
Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
It's bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't want to be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else
LA told me
You'll be a pop star
All you have to change
Is everything you are
Tired of being compared
To damn Britney Spears
She's so pretty
That just ain't me
I'm a hazard to myself
Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
It's bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't want to be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else
So doctor doctor won't you please prescribe me something
A day in the life of someone else
I'm a hazard to myself
Don't let me get me
I'm my own worst enemy
It's bad when you annoy yourself
So irritating
Don't want to be my friend no more
I wanna be somebody else
I wanna be somebody else...
current mood:  disappointed
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Sunday, February 17th, 2002
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10:58 am - y..
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i like mark dufault!!!!!!!! y??????? someone please tell me y!!! he doesnt like me!!! so y do i even bother?????????????????
current mood: confused
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Friday, February 1st, 2002
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5:06 pm - i hate my mom
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my mom is such a jerk sometimes.. like today.. i really want tog o skating cuz the guy i like will be there.. and this is like the only time i will EVA be able to see him cuz he lives in wetfield.. but maybe i can go to one of his dances.. no his girlfriend will be there.. ugh.. i wish that my momm would let me go! she ahs been acting like this lately.. i dont no if you can go.. dont put ur hopes up.. i dont no if you can go.. dont put ur hopes up.. it gets me so irritated.. and then she comes n my room all cheery.. and it just makes me even more mad.. cuz she is trying to pretend that im not even mad at her.. and then like all of my friends are gonna be on top of joey.. and i am gonna feel so bad.. i am gonna call him adn tell him that i am not going.. but i will try to go next week.. hopefully he can go next week.. ugh i hate this so much.. she is so mean to me sometimes.. like i have no feelings.... :(
current mood:  sad
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Tuesday, January 29th, 2002
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5:53 pm - pretty cool...
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Monday, January 28th, 2002
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12:22 pm - bored
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i havent really done much of anything this weekend.. except for skating and sleeping over the twins house on saturday.. but sunday was dullsville and i just went on line the whole time.. me and kinny are best friends again.. czu me adn courtney are drifting.. :( .. and then marissa blais and jayne hastie are like.. my best friends to.. i love them all! :).. so thats a sad thing AND a happy thing all in one! cool huh?.. well if you havent noticed.. i am really bored again.. even tho i am in computer class which is usually really fun.. its not today.. even tho we have free time for the whole class!.. but alls i hear right now.. is frankie.. blabbing away.. and its really annoying.. cuz he always makes fun of me.. adn then he thinks its funny they way i talk when i am sorta tired.. NOT COOL FRANKIE... SO JUST ZIP IT! lol.. i still really like mike johnson and joey.. but for some reason i dont like mark anymore.. surprising.. huh?.. i dont liek him cuz he likes courtney so what is the point of liking him??.. he acts like an ass ALL the time. and makes fun of me.. so i MOVED ON! lol.. but i still like ^*blondie*^.. and half of the people that i usually tell everything to.. I DIDNT TELL WHO ^*BLONDIE*^ WAS! and i really dont want to tell them who it is.. cuz then i know that they will tell me that iwill never have a chance with him.. the only person that said that i could PROBABLLY have a chance with him was marissa.. i luv her so much! lol.. and then there is frankie.. i used to think that i would ALWAYS like him no matter what.. but then i saw the real him.. adn i really dont like him that much.. i just love him like a brother.. but then there is that side of me that is tryin to tell me to like him cuz he was my first real crush.. but i dunno.. i am just gonna let what is supposed to happen... happen...
~~~~~~~i want ^*blondie*^~~~~~~~
current mood:  hyper
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Sunday, January 20th, 2002
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4:00 pm - no one is on adn im really bored
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theres nothing to do and i am stuck here.. continuing on doing nothing.. everyone went skating but i couldnt go cuz i might have pink eye.. which SUX.. and im bored.. which SUX.. and everything is just dull.. and it SUX.. i need to go shopping.. cuz im BoReD.. and it SUX.. get the point? im back to being best friends with my "old" best friend koryn.. and i have 3 new best friends.. jayne marissa and nicole.. i love them all! i like this kid mark.. ugh why i like him i have no clue.. i still like chris bach.. y i like hiom i have no clue.. i still like mike johnson.. y i like him i have no clue.. he even told me that he would never like me enough to go out with me which is mainly saying " i dont ever want to go out with you.. so back off".. and then i like this kid chad from skating.. y i like him.. well.. hes hott.. and nice.. and wicked funny.. thats y.. but he dont like me..none of them do.. so i might as well just stop.. anyways.. im trying to type positivley..and so far im doing pretty good.. huh?
P.S. NO SCHOOL TOMARROW!!! WU HU!!!!!!!!!!!!!
current mood:  bored
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3:47 pm - im always the little one.. but hey.. its fun!
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Saturday, January 12th, 2002
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11:13 am
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Horoscope: Cancer
Expect to have problems with friends or relatives. Don't let them get involved in your personal problems. Sit down and work things out with your mate. Outsiders will only make matters worse.
current mood:  tired
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Tuesday, January 8th, 2002
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5:48 pm
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Take the What Should Your New Year's Resolution Be? Quiz
 | My anthem is
"I Choose", by The Offspring.
I live life like there were no tomorrow, but I know when to keep my nose out of serious trouble. I may seem pretty childish to some people, and I won't deny that I am. But that's why everyone loves me.
Find out what YOUR anthem is HERE! |
Take the animal crackers test.
I AM ALIGNED WITH THE ELEMENT FIRE!
Element: Fire
Direction:South
Celtic Celebration: Summer Solstice (approx. June 21st)
Personality Traits: High Energy, Leadership, Quick to anger
People attuned to the element fire tend to be excellent leaders, though quick to anger, thier high energy gets the job done.
Find out what element you are aligned with
This test created by Celtic_Shamanes
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You're not a know-it-all, but you can never pass up an opportunity to needle someone when you're right and they're wrong. You're irritated because people tend to forget (or be ignorant of) who you are when you participate in things. You make others uncomfortable, and have no sense of personal space, ya looney.
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 I am a Breakout Bat.
I am an abstract sort of creature, who dislikes any sort of restraint. If you try to pigeonhole me, I'll break the box, and come back for more. I don't have any particular ambitions, I just drift, but I am adept at keeping life going along. What Video Game Character Are You?
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 Take the MONSTER RANCHER test at dontbewillful.com!
The Castaway Quiz
deems me:
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Mary Ann
You radiate wholesome goodness. This drives men wild. Sure Ginger may get all the attention at first, but in the end, it's you they really want.
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85% Eighties Pop Act
You are Bruce Springsteen: You grew a lot during the eighties and nineties, but none of your friends will let you live down what you did in the eighties. So, put on your Members Only jacket and breakdance.
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Take the 100 Acre Personality Quiz!
 | You are Gerald!
Well aren't you cool. And a good best friend. A little superficial? Well come on, the hair IS pretty important. | take the what hey arnold! character are you? test | |
Take the Corporate Mascot Test at Willaston's Lounge!
current mood:  happy
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Thursday, January 3rd, 2002
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6:00 pm - well..
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i still like joey.. wow.. surprising? i think not.. jayne marissa courtney emmie rachel and kayla... bfflz? HELL YAH!
current mood:  bitchy
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Saturday, December 22nd, 2001
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3:13 pm
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Saturday, December 8th, 2001
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8:08 am - what to say...
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i went skating last night 7-11 with kayla,jayne,and marissa. They all "met" someone, and know they all wanna go back and see each other again.marissa met this hot guy named matt, and kayla met this 'semi-cute-kid-who-looked-like-he-was-eight' and now alls she was talking about was "chad this,chad that, i had dream about chad,, OOO" lol.. AND I AM not LYING! then jayne met this kid named 'kid-in-the-red' ( i dont know his name so i am abreviating) and then she gave him her number. and he was BUTT ugly!! and i mean UGLY! but, i mean it was fun, even tho my flufkin ankels hurt, but thats ok.. then kayla wants to go skating again tonight, but i am still trying to get my ankles back into the right position.. hopefully " chad-n-his-posse " arent there, cuz then kayla will diss me...
current mood:  sore
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Thursday, November 22nd, 2001
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5:42 pm - i dont know y..
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y did this have to happen?
y did this have to happen to me?
y did he have to go?
y did he have to go know?
y did she cry?
y did she cry this hard?
y did this have to happen?
y did this have to happen now?
my mothers best friend brenda.. her husband .. on thanksgiving .. had to go to the hospital...
well brenda was trying to get ron in his wheel chair.. and he fell on the floor.. and she couldnt get him up so she called my momm... and told her what happened and my momm was like "just call 911 and they will help u get him up" cuz we were eating... so she does and then she calls back and the police are there and shes like "sheila ron isnt breathing and his lips are blue and his resperator isnt working and he doesnt have a pulse.. and the police think that he is dead" so my momm went to the hospital with brenda and my dad.. my momm was crying b4 she left..
alls that i could think of was....what if he dies?.. i was crying and thinking that it was just a little day dream.. but i was wrong... it really happened... but he isnt dead.. thank god.. but he has a very severe brain damage.. which isnt that good.. but i am so greatful that he is alive.. cuz my life has been like a never ending bumpy roller-coaster...and i feel like it is never going to end..
i need someone to hold.. i need someone to tell me its alright.. i need someone else to help me pray with him.. maybe.. that someone could be... you?...
current mood: depressed
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5:31 pm - i dont know y..
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y did this have to happen?
y did this have to happen to me?
y did he have to go?
y did he have to go know?
y did she cry?
y did she cry this hard?
y did this have to happen?
y did this have to happen now?
my mothers best friend brenda.. her husband .. on thanksgiving .. had to go to the hospital...
well brenda was trying to get ron in his wheel chair.. and he fell on the floor.. and she couldnt get him up so she called my momm... and told her what happened and my momm was like "just call 911 and they will help u get him up" cuz we were eating... so she does and then she calls back and the police are there and shes like "sheila ron isnt breathing and his lips are blue and his resperator isnt working and he doesnt have a pulse.. and the police think that he is dead" so my momm went to the hospital with brenda and my dad.. my momm was crying b4 she left..
alls that i could think of was....what if he dies?.. i was crying and thinking that it was just a little day dream.. but i was wrong... it really happened... but he isnt dead.. thank god.. but he has a very severe brain damage.. which isnt that good.. but i am so greatful that he is alive.. cuz my life has been like a never ending bumpy roller-coaster...and i feel like it is never going to end..
i need someone to hold.. i need someone to tell me its alright.. i need someone else to help me pray with him.. maybe.. that someone could be... you?...
current mood: depressed
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Wednesday, November 21st, 2001
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9:17 pm - hey
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Saturday, November 17th, 2001
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11:26 am - guys...y
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my friend lisa was going to go the movies with mike (the guy i like) but then she thought of how much i liked him and she didnt even ask him to go... thast what real friends are... and then becky keeps yelling at me for NO reason....that pisses me off..and then my best friend rachel keeps tellin me how everyone likes me and how ugly she is and fat and dumb.. but she aint any of it,..and that pisses me off.. and then the guy i liek does the same thing that rachel does!! and THAT pisses me off... so mainly i get pissed off easily....and for some reason.... ALL the reasons i get pissed off have a guy realted to the problem.. so who needs guys???...... i dont need them... that much...
current mood: pissed off
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Friday, November 16th, 2001
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3:03 pm - well...
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what is the world with nothing good in it? What is a world with hate? Well...this is OUR world.. a hell hole isnt it? yep with all of the worlds devils in it to.. like my mother for instance..what kind of mother yells at you, calls you a bitch, dumbass, ugly, stupid, and doesnt kid around when she says it? well that would be MY mother.. u guys should be lucky that you have your parents.. they SHOW that they love you.. unlike mine.. well my dad does..but thats it...
**ANYWAYS**
my life is good... up to the point about guys its fine, but everything else is going ok.. i mean mike (my crush) doesnt even say hi to me in the halls and is never online so i cant ask him y he isnt talk to me.. myabe its just that i am REALLY annoying or something... well i lost my chance with him.. and i dont think that i will ever have another one either.... so for no wi will just focus on what i CAN have..which is really nothing..so i guess... actually.. i really dont no what to do..
current mood:  indescribable
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Thursday, November 8th, 2001
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4:34 pm - doing better
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everything is " A OK " well at least i think it is.. me and becky are not mad at each other!! BUT were mad at someone else!! hehe.. koryn barboza...shes such a bRat!!! she thinks that everyone should hail to her..and shes just... UGH!! then the guy that i like mike johnson... tells me that he loves me online.. and then gave me a hug the next day!! i was soo happy.. but then again sad.. happy because he noticed me...but sad because the only reason he IS noticing me is because he probably feels bad for me.. but becky says that he lieks me .. and SHE KNOWS IT.. and now.. im confused.... who should i believe? Me or Becky?
current mood: confused
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Tuesday, November 6th, 2001
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8:23 pm - am i not right?
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im talkin to my bf online he is the only thing is DAMNED world that keeps me sain... my parents dont give a crap about me.. and my friends are starting to hate me.. so he is the only thing that makes me smile!! besides mike.. hes like my best friend.. i can tell him anything.. and hes always there 4 me..but hey.. thats life.. i ahvent heard from shannon in a while.. and my friend becky is talking crap about me saying that i destroy EVERYONES life.. but i dont.. she is the one that came to me and said that she liked MY crush .. the one that I had liked before her .. and then she says all of this stuff like i no this about him and i no that.. but after a while i get used to it.. but if she reads this.. like she probably is now..shes thinking i hate u-amber i hate u amber... but u no what? i dont care this time.. because sooner or later she is REALLY gonna hate me and i am just gonna be ready for it.. am i not right BECKY?
current mood:  dorky
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